Warning: This is a long one.
There are two things in life that I am very resilient with, dieting and blogging. Now being resilient is a very good thing, because you can bounce back easily. I am happy that I have not given up on either but not happy that I cannot make a habit or commitment to either.
So here I am again. Each time I say,
"This time is going to be different."
I think of my diet I started two weeks ago and think through what went right and what went wrong.
Each time I start again I change something-
in hopes that that change will be the key.
That I will figure out my weight loss success.
"This time is going to be different."
I think of my diet I started two weeks ago and think through what went right and what went wrong.
Each time I start again I change something-
in hopes that that change will be the key.
That I will figure out my weight loss success.
Then there's blogging.
The Lord knows I can talk, but for some reason I just never feel like saying anything.
But when it comes to my body and my diet, and especially my walk with the Savior- I definitely have a lot to say.
This part is a bit nerve-wracking, for I am really putting it all out there. But this journey is very important to me, this is a spiritual journey more than anything else.
Here goes the 1st confession.
I have always prayed to God before I've tried to make a healthy lifestyle change, but only kinda.
I have always prayed to God before I've tried to make a healthy lifestyle change, but only kinda.
What I mean by this 'kinda' is that I would say a quick,
"Please Lord help me loose this weight, if it be your will- Amen."
I guess in the back of my head I was giving myself insurance. I was scared that if I prayed right and fully relied on God and went to Him correctly and humbly and didn't loose the weight/become healthy then I would have nowhere else to go. I was scared to stay the same.
I was scared to fully rely on God.
I was scared to fully rely on God.
Here's why this time is actually different.
I'm not just trying some fad diet, I'm really wanting to make a realistic lifestyle change. And the most important difference of all is that I am putting God first, like He should be in everything we do.
I'm not just trying some fad diet, I'm really wanting to make a realistic lifestyle change. And the most important difference of all is that I am putting God first, like He should be in everything we do.
" Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;"
1 Corinthians 6:19
And now to inject you with more truth,
I have always known these things.
I know my body is a temple of God,
I know that if I really want to succeed in something it must be through him.
I know that by me not loving myself is an insult toward a creation of God.
But I have allowed habits to form and sit in.
I have always known these things.
I know my body is a temple of God,
I know that if I really want to succeed in something it must be through him.
I know that by me not loving myself is an insult toward a creation of God.
But I have allowed habits to form and sit in.
It is wrong for me to hate myself and constantly compare myself and complain about the way I am.
I have allowed these habits to distance me from God.
I have allowed the scale to become an idol.
I am on a journey to become healthy.
To love myself the way He does.
To allow God to use me the way I was created for.
To not limit God.
So here it goes again.
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